[identity profile] asnowyowl.livejournal.com posting in [community profile] mini_fest
Title: Christmas Isn’t Always Merry
Author/Artist:
Disclaimer: I do not own the fandom, Scholastic, Warner Brothers, or Jo’s brain. I wish I did. I’m not making any money off this venture. I wish I was :-P.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Spousal Abuse.
Prompts: Just came out of my brain on its own.
Word Count: 869
A/N: Thanks to my lovely beta, T, as always. And to [livejournal.com profile] brissygirl for setting this little fest up!



December 25th, 1964

Severus is wide-awake. He has been for hours. Today is Christmas. Mummy and Daddy told him not to come downstairs until they call for him, but he just can’t stand it. He pulls on the wooly socks Mummy made him last Christmas, and sleepily rubs his eyes. He fishes out Bear from under the covers, and sneaks out of his bedroom.

Severus bounces down the stairs, Bear in hand. He loves Bear—Bear sleeps with him and Bear is his best friend, other than Daddy. He doesn’t mind that Bear is a little bald in one spot and is missing an eye. That’s just what Bear looks like.

Severus squeals as he reaches the bottom of the stairs. “Look, Bear!” He points Bear’s head towards the Christmas tree. “Prezzies!”

“Yes, Sev! Presents!” Daddy exclaims as he walks out of the kitchen, bearing a plate of cookies. Severus loves Christmas; it’s the only time that Mummy and Daddy let him have cookies for the breakfast. He grabs three and tries to shove them all in his mouth at the same time. Daddy laughs and Severus grins—cookie crumbs falling out of his mouth onto his pajamas.

He sees Mummy walk into the room. She is not as happy as Daddy. She’s never happy like Daddy, who chases him in the yard and lets him play “Airplane” on the floor of the living room. But he loves his mummy—she gives the best hugs and always kisses his boo-boos.

He scrambles towards the tree and, reading the tags, finds a particularly shiny present for Mummy. Maybe a present will make her happy!

She thanks him and begins opening the present. It’s the ashtray he made her in day school! Daddy wrapped it up so pretty he didn’t know! She smiles at him—a small, quiet smile, and pulls him into a hug. “Thank you, my little Prince,” she whispers, and kisses him on the cheek. Severus is glad he made Mummy happy.

“Severus’ turn!” Daddy exclaims. Daddy hands him a long box wrapped in green paper with a silver bow. Mummy laughs softly for a second, and Severus doesn’t know why. He begins pulling the paper off the box in large handfuls.

“AIRPLANE!” he squeals! Daddy and he play Airplane, but never with an actual airplane! Usually, Daddy balances him tummy-first onto his feet and lifts him into the air while making airplane noises. It’s fun, but it’s not a real airplane!

And it’s a special airplane, apparently. It slowly begins to rise out of his small hands. He lets go and the airplane begins flying around the room by itself. He claps his hands, and the lights on the Christmas tree begin to sparkle and flash!

He is brought of his excitement by the sound of a loud slap. The plane falls from the air and smashes into the hardwood floor, the left propeller flying off. He looks at Daddy, standing over Mummy. Mummy is crying and holding her face. Daddy slaps her again! Why is Daddy slapping Mummy? Was she bad? Did she break something? Sometimes Daddy spanks him when he is bad, but only on his bottom. Why is Daddy hitting Mummy in the face so hard?

“I thought you said he wasn’t like you, Eileen! I thought you said that if he didn’t do anything by the age of two that he was not--like--you!” After all these years, he still can’t call her what she is.

Tears begin sliding down Severus’ face. He doesn’t know why everyone is angry. It’s Christmas. And Christmas is happy because of cookies and prezzies. He buries Bear’s head into his chest and begins crying into Bear’s soft fur.

“I don’t know, Tobias, I don’t know! Please stop, I’ll teach him not to, I swear!”

Tobias leaves the living room, grabs his coat and hat, and exits the house. Later that night he will come home and continue screaming at Eileen. This will be the general theme of the rest of Severus’ childhood.

The door slams shut and Eileen immediately grabs up her son. She quiets his crying and hugs him as hard as he hugs Bear.

“Don’t cry, Severus. Please don’t cry. It’s okay. Mommy was bad and Daddy had to punish her. It won’t happen again.”

He sniffles and buries his face farther into her shoulder.

“You and me, Severus. We’re special. We’re more special than anyone else we know. Mummy can make planes fly too, Severus! And one day she’ll show you how to do it whenever you want. But for right now, we have to just be Mummy and Severus, ok? Don’t let anyone tell you you aren’t special, sweetie, because you are! You’re a little Prince! Just like your Mummy.”

Severus doesn’t know what she means, but he likes that Mummy isn’t crying anymore. Pulling his head back, he looks at her. He smacks a big, wet kiss on her cheek.

“I love you, Mummy!”

“I love you too, Severus.”

And placing him on his feet, she grabs his hand and leads him back to the pile of presents. They rip the paper off and play with his new toys for the rest of the day.

Date: 2009-12-03 11:57 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] remuslives23.livejournal.com
Ouchy. This was hard to read, but very well written. :)

Date: 2010-01-03 01:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you very much!

Date: 2009-12-03 12:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fancypantsdylan.livejournal.com
Of that was so sad, poor Severus *pets & hugs* and his poor airplane, I do hope Eileen fixed it for him. This would explain so much about the rest of his childhood.

Very hauntingly beautiful :)

Date: 2010-01-03 01:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
i'm so glad you liked it. thanks for reviewing!

Date: 2010-01-03 01:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
i feel bad for tobias too. not enough to justify his actions, obvs. i hate fics that are immediately like "tobias = evil" but don't give him any depth. i thought it could be fun to play with him a bit.

Date: 2009-12-03 02:30 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] torino10154
Poor Severus. And everyone really. :( Gorgeously written if sad. Great job.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you so much!

Date: 2009-12-03 05:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] keppiehed.livejournal.com
What a great idea-I haven't read any stories of Severus' very early formative years. What a heartbreaker. You put us right in the scene and made us ache. Job well done.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you so much, my dear!

Date: 2009-12-03 07:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] literaryspell.livejournal.com
Wow, this was stunning. I loved little Severus. And Bear. This packed quite a punch. From Severus' point of view, it was very powerful. And I liked Eileen in this, as well, trying to be so strong for both of them. Great work, very affecting.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you so much, literaryspell! i really love how specific your reviews are. let's me know what to keep doing!

Date: 2009-12-03 08:45 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] moonlitdark.livejournal.com
Haunting and sad. Very well done!

Date: 2010-01-03 01:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you so much!

Date: 2009-12-03 10:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] accioslash.livejournal.com
Oh, this was so sad. And I agree with [livejournal.com profile] asnowyowl, I even feel badly for Tobias that he has allowed his ignorance and feat cost him his family. Though it's so much worse for poor Severus and Eileen.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thanks. i was trying to humanize him a bit. not justify his actions, to be sure. but just not make him a static evil guy. thanks for the review!

Date: 2009-12-03 11:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lurkerfromoz.livejournal.com
How sad! Beautifully done.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you so much!

Date: 2009-12-04 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] veritas03.livejournal.com
Heartbreaking. Little Severus was so sweet and innocent with his Bear and the his perceptions. Beautifully written.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thank you! i love bear :) he's as close as i will get to an OMC :)

Date: 2009-12-04 01:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rebism.livejournal.com
Oh, this is so well written. You did beautifully. It's dreadful and painful and sad. And so happy and hopeful and full of wonder and little boy confusion through Severus's eyes, and beautiful in Eileen's protection of him. And I love Bear :)

Date: 2010-01-03 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
thanks so much, rebism! glad it had *some* hope. i was going for that!

Date: 2009-12-04 05:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] clairvoyant.livejournal.com
Beautifully done, asnowyowl. You captured the sadness and confusion of a scared child with this story. I also like Eileen's quiet determination to make life better for her son.
One gets the feeling that life wasn't so happy for Eileen even before that moment, and it won't get any better.

Date: 2009-12-04 09:05 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] mini_fest_mod
asnowyowl didn't write this, she just didn't use the mod journal to post it, naughty co-mod that she is. ;)

brissygirl

Date: 2009-12-04 10:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] clairvoyant.livejournal.com
Shocking! Tell Santa to put her on the naughty list. ;)

Date: 2009-12-05 10:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] clairvoyant.livejournal.com
Aww, that's okay. I still can't figure out all the mysteries of the internet. How do all the messages travel over the airwaves? Is it magic?

Date: 2010-01-03 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
rofl, clairoyant, you're cracking me up :) thank you so much for the review!

Date: 2009-12-04 10:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] centaury-squill.livejournal.com
Oh, so sad. *reaches for hanky*

Date: 2010-01-03 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
sorry! i tried to warn everyone! *hands you hanky*

Date: 2009-12-05 02:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] werewolfsfan.livejournal.com
Haunting and unfortunately rings with the certainty of canon. I'll be bookmarking this.

Date: 2010-01-03 01:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] astopperindeath.livejournal.com
wow, "rings with the certainty of canon" is about the best review i've ever received. thank you so much!! :)

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